Thinking out loud

For some unknown reason, lately I’ve developed a strange new ability. I can stay awake for days with only 1-2 hours of sleep per day. The discovery of this new ability lead me to ask from the expert to give me something to control this power. Is called sleeping pills. It is allegedly keep the new power of mine in dormant so that I can lead a normal live.

Before experiencing insomnia, I was under the impression that how bad can it be. Think of the things that can be done when you are not required to spend 1/4 - 1/3 of the day to sleep. As a lot of people say, there is not enough time in a day. Well, you gain 5-8 hours if you don’t sleep.

Now that I’m having it, I found out that you can’t do much cause while you are awake, people on that part of the world is asleep. Unless you are interested in online games, which I’m not really into, there is basically only one thing you can do. Blame it on something. The first few days, i actually try to roll around and hope sleep will come, which it did eventually at 5-6am. This is add more reason why I hate to wake up in the morning.

And the ironic is that sleeping is actually listed in my CV as a hobby.

Life sucks

Things are a lot more rush today, as I have a lot of paperwork to do and so little time. At present, my brain is freeze up in its work process. I can’t think. So as the title goes, I’m writing this blog to relax my mind so it can continue to do all the complicated thoughts process that my work has demanded.

I’m writing this blog as my mind command my fingers to type. There is nothing in particular that I wanted to write about. Just to let the brain do simple task, without much consideration of what the result will be disasterous.

Hmm, suddenly a thought pop up in my mind. My life sucks because i’m not rich. If I am, then I can make other people life sucks and I believe that will brighten up my life a lot more, filling in the void thus making it not capable of suction. Ah, look at the time… need to get back to work.

Well, here I am at 2006. Another year gone, leaving me behind without much feeling of great accomplishment. Still not yet won any lottery, still single, still the guy I am this time last year, except of course older but not wiser. Sigh.

As usual, come new year, come resolution. Since last year resolution was not achieve, (miss out target like the distance between the sun and pluto), think I’ll stick with it this year. Resolution year 2006, strike at least 1 million in lottery, bwahahahaha. And people say I don’t think big.

Unfortunately for me, I’m still at holiday mood, which makes today seems so long. Even though it is just 1pm now, I feel like I’m ready to call it a day. It’s been awhile since I wake up at 7am. Sigh, I miss my holidays.

Think I have been missing out of in posting my thoughts lately. Been back to Ipoh for the last 2 months, and now I realise more than ever, shouldn’t use dial up to do anything else but check company mails. It is so SLOW.

The year is coming to an end, and now here am I, same as last year stuck in my room. Entertain a few thoughts of going some where, anyway, but then again it sucks to go places alone during this time of year. I believe that I probably observing the new year the same place as last year. Then again, I’m only like new year because I like all holidays. And to think that the first working day of 2006 is not on monday, that just cheer me up even though only for a while.

On second thought, maybe I’ll just buy some form of alcohol and got so drunk that I will not even know that is 2006 until the hangover kicks in. Not that I have better things to do anyway. A plan is better than no plans. Suddenly feels pathetic, wonder why?

It toke me a while, but I finally figure that I’m most probably the most lazy people that I know of personally. It hit me when on 1 fine weekend, I was feeling hungry, but I’m debating with myself whether or not to pull myself away from my PS2 and get myself some food. I argue with myself that it is late at night, or morning depends on how you want to put in, and the only food source available within 10 minutes drive is only mamak and A&W. Ended up in A&W, cause my stomach told my brain that if I don’t put anything in, it give something out. And based on past experience, my generally don’t want to upset my stomach. You never know when they will have their revenge.

I sincerely believe that laziness, (beside war), is one of the main reason we achieved so many technological advancement. Laziness tends to spur you to do things the most effectively, as you want to finished your work as soon as possible so that you can start to "snake around".

Anyway, my point is that I do not feel bad about being lazy. I actually enjoy it, to be frank. It means I’ll always be me.

End note: Hope my boss is not reading this.

Working life is clearly different from my life as a student. Thinking back, can’t recall why in the world that I looked forward to finished my studies and start working. Those carefree life days…. Now days I spend a lot of time looking back and feel it was like a lifetime away, even though it’s only been 4 years in reality. How time flies when you look back.

In these 4 years, I can still recall most of the outstation job. Those long and odd working hours. Funny that at that time, it doesn’t feel as bad as it is now days. Wonder why? Maybe I’m getting old, as some people I know always tell me. Maybe mentally. Ah, the wonders that working life changes people.

As in these topics about looking back, there is once in time that Daniel and I order a 6 person meals in Pizza Hut and almost managed to scrap everything that they serve. If memory serve, we need to bungkus only 2 slices of regular pizza and left a bowl of soup. Now I’m getting stuff just by finishing a single person servings. Something, somewhere must went horribly wrong.

Anyway, now I’m sitting in the office, idling around waiting for the weekends. And then next week I’ll be travelling with Daniel, if the plan doesn’t change. So that all my mumbling for this time.

Getting close to leaving the office, so nothing much to do, not that I really want to anyway, so think I’ll just fill in my blog. Don’t like to see that started a blog and only have 1 entry. Looks pathetic.

Hmmm… Since now the government increase the so call "sin tax" again, I getting the old urge to start living healthy like stop smoking, don’t consume alcohol, exercising…blah blah blah..

Then I realised that every time this urge come, I actually doing the things that I shouldn’t do more, and the things that I should, less. So I come to the conclusion that this type of urge is actually bad for me and my wallet. Suddenly recall that I actually forgot to go jogging that I boosted I would continually do for the rest of my life.

Anyway, I recall a joke on healthy lifestyle. In a phrase that I really agree with is that "Living Healthy means you Die Healthy". So if I’m going to die anyway, might as well enjoy the process of killing my self with those highly UN-nutritious food but taste good compare to those healthy food.

And now it’s time to go back home… Happy happy thoughts. Think I’ll get myself some bugger for dinner..

Hmmm…. Since some people do this, it seems like a good idea to write some comments on how my life has been.

It seems like years ago when I started to work, until now can’t really say that I can see the fruit of my labour. Wonder when will be that fateful day. Travelling has been the part and parcel of my work, that being said my home in sunway, or I should say my room, seems the only place I can find solace, when it was not being intruded of by a wakeup call on weekends morning. Particularly by a housemate of mine who find it interesting to wake me up his so called breakfast.

Thought of buying some Air guns, still wondering whether or not it’s legal to shoot at some rooster that suffer from insominia. Bloody crow at 3 am in the morning. Disturbing my much needed sleep. I believe that man (in particular me) should be allowed to sleep as long as he like, without need to worry that if we arrive late for work or appointment and might get sack. Life sucks.

Ah well, enough writing for the time. Might get bored in spitting my thoughts out. Never good at voicing my thoughts anyway. So until next time, I think I’m gonna just let the day goes by while my sulking my face at the corner of my life.